Eternal damnation to thee of you amongst my foes!

Okay, that didnt make any sense to me either.. Anyway, I was bored 'cause my mate refuses to come online again, I bet he fell asleep... Damn wanker-dodger..

So I figured I might just aswell make an entry... So... what should I call this entry?
"Unt Figeren tuttifrutti ali baba".. I think thats german, but I might be wrong..
NO! It needs a decent title, something that screams out "I WHO READS THIS ARE AN IDIOT, AND I LIKE TO MOLEST SHEEPS!"
Hm.. I guess I'll just call it "Nick".. I dunno why, but it makes sense to me.

So "Nick" it is, awesome! "Nick"; the coolest entry I've ever made...


Errr... Now what the hell am I gonna write here? hm... BANANAHAMMOCK! That usually works when I aint got nothing else to say...

Maybe I'll just fill this entire entry with some crap about something that interrests me, I guess I could!
Here goes;fuck you

Oh I APOLOGIZE if I offended you.. retard...


Chapter 1: Who are you?
Who I am? Alot of people have asked me that, and even though the answer would seem simple, it wouldnt quite explain who I really am.
So how do you explain who you are? By words? By looks? How? If you know, feel free to share your information with me, 'cause I dont know.
I've been thinking... And I've come to a conclusion-My life just aint what it used to be, and what for?
I used to love, I used to love a person, who I am, and what I do.. But.. What do you do, when you've lost that love for everything? Do you pass it on to hate? And instead of loving, you hate?
That would seem to be the easiest way to solve, change one feeling, for another, and you'd feel whole again.
But what exactly defines love? And what defines hate? What is the differance?
If I hadn't experienced both, I'd claim to know... But I dont, because I have been affected by love, aswell as hatred.
I've loved, and hated, I've even loved what I've hated, and hated what I've loved...
"But how do you hate something or someone you love?".
Its simple really... Love and hate are the same, and not so different that you'd think.
Alot of people claim that they dont hate anyone, and nor have they ever hated anything or anyone.

But that cant be true? What about starving children in Afghanistan? Or the wars in Iraq?
Dont you hate that? Or do you just dont care? And why dont you care?
If you cant hate that children are starving, you just dont care, and if you dont care, you cant love.
So if you cant hate, you cant love, for mankind defines love, by the hate that we feel, that makes us love.
I hate one, I love another, is that wrong?
I say not... To hate is to be human, not to hate, would make one cold-hearted.
So dont claim that you can love, if you cannot hate, and vice versa.

Love is remarkable thing. When you love, you think you've got everything under control, but do you really?
And how would you know?
I once knew a man, that told his wife, that "if you love me, you will stay with me forever, and if you hate me, you will leave me for another man.".
She decided to leave him for another, but do you know why? Because she loved him.
And perhaps you've got problems adding that up. She leaves him for another man, cause she loves the man she left?
Yet again, its simple... She choose to run, and make him think she hated him, instead of promising him eternal love, a promise she knew she couldnt keep.
She made him hate her, instead of loving her, exchanging one feeling for another.
Do you now understand what it means to love? Do you understand what it means to hate?
I think not... None will ever know what it means, it takes a lifetime to define one-another, but it takes an eternity to divide the both, with a line that keeps them far far away from eachother.

Love, and hate... Those are strong words, and often we use them, inappropriate...
You love your wife, but another man "stole" her from you, and therefore you hate him.
But why do you hate him? Because he found someone that made him happy? Or because your wife found someone to make her happy? Why do you hate a man, that loves your wife, the same way you do?
Because you were first? And he "stole" her from you? No, thats not it, you hate him, because he gets to feel the same thing you once did, you hate him because YOU have lost something you held close to your heart.

But do you really hate him? In fact, I belive that you love him, with all your heart. But the only way to show it, is to hate him, because you understand no better.

Not many people do, and that is a fact, known to many, understood by few.

Maybe lots of this seems like random ramblings to you, but this is what I think, this is what I belive.
That is why I can say, that I hate my enemies, as much as love those I hold close to my heart.

If that is hard to understand, think through what I've written, and take a close look at yourself, and try to claim, that you cannot hate, someone you love...

- Carrigage

Well yeah, another day, another adventure.

People seem to find it hard that I'm a Satanist, and those who belive that I am, think I'm some sort of "animal torturer" and "blood drinking fucktard". Which I'm not of course.
There are those who call'emselves "Satanists". Those who do sacrifices to satan, and worships satan..
Thats wrong!

Allow me to tell you about satanism.
Its based on egyptian religion, those who worships Osiris, the god of death.
Which of course is logical, cause Osiris is the one who decides wether you are going to hell or heaven.

However (This is what I think.) when Christianity came hundreds of years later, the Satanists (Not called Satanists at the time being.), were offended by the way the christians spread their religion, and forced people to believe in a god they have never heard of before.

So the satanists read the bible, and were once again offended by the scripts in the bible, cause they say against all other religions, and throws shit at some specific religions. Such as; Vikings, Satanists, Jews and so on.
Therefore they decided to write their own bible, by turning everything around, putting satan in heaven, as the good guy.
Which of course, the Christians didn't like.

But know this; Satanists does not belive in the satan described in the bible, rather the satan described in the satanic bible.

Which ain't the same Satan.

So Satanists has nothing to to with christianity.
The upside-down crucifix in the satanist sigil is just a sign that they do not like the christian way.


Now I'm off, gonna go see a mate of mine!
Have a pleasant day everyone.

And if you read this Jord, I wont say "Told you so", cause I knew you'd eventually experience the same loss that I did.

Signing off
- Jesus